I am losing it
Paulina
A heavy feeling grows in my chest as I walk back and forth across my room, phone pressed to my ear. I have been trying to reach my mother for the past ten minutes. It is time to tell her the truth: I want to leave college.
I already have a plan. If I keep working at The Coffee Bean and swi...
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1. All men terrify me
2. My roommates were going to completely lose it when they saw this.
3. Meaningless kiss
4. Why does this girl make me act like such an idiot?
5. Kissing Damien, pretending to date him… what could possibly go wrong?
6. Damien! It is embarrassing! Do not read it!"
7. Like you are disappointed in me
8. What the hell was so funny?
9. That shy boy is gone. He has turned into a man
10. How could I not react this way?
11. Oh no. Is Paul walking into trouble?
12. Why are you making this so dramatic?
13. Why the hell does Elise care so much about whether Julian lives with me?
14. The pressure is unbearable.
15. My body clenches at the sight alone.
16. Why are you in my bed?
17. I thought you two were a couple
18. Does that make me a terrible person?
19. I wonder if Damien will see me that way too.
20. Do these two have a past?
21. S-stay the night?
22. Maybe I should just apologize for earlier and keep my feelings to myself tonight
23. What do you want to do after college?
24. People better watch out. I think Elise is turning into a gangster
25. ....my pulse only grew faster.
26. I am nothing like my mom
27. Are you on your period?
28. My girlfriend is very pretty.
29. What am I supposed to do?
30. What if I refuse to break up with him?
31. I am pregnant
32. Why would I ever say no to that?
33. Look at you. Corrupting your own innocence
34. I try to keep my face straight, but my lips twitch ...
35. .... you sound like my grandmother
36. I wanted to wish you luck with a kiss
37. I have a few ways to help jog your memory
38. That infuriating man!
39. Call an ambulance
40. I only want our boys to make it.
41. Let’s see what you brought inside. I am curious
42. I am glad you are coming out
43. I am furious
44. My muscles tighten around him
45. Ripped-player-pants.
46. Money is not a problem
47. You are thinking a guy my age, with no experience, cannot stay faithful
48. I am so afraid. Please, let me see her one more time.
49. Did you have another nightmare?
50. I do not apologise when I say that they deserve to rot.
51. I miss his touch
52. I undress
53. I cannot wait.
54. Out of my room!
55. Are you lonely?
56. Just one friend? That is honest of her
57. I bite my lip hard
58. Ouch. Do not tell me that
59. Maybe we could go on a date?
60. How can I ever make him love me back?
61. I am losing it
62. .... do I need to carry you again?
63. I want to take care of them
64. I cannot believe how much I want him.
65. I know exactly what this is leading to.
66. What exactly are we now?
67. Will I ever truly be ready?
68. What do you need me to do, boss?
69. The ball is entirely in her court.
70. You are so light
71. You are so tight...
72. I had no idea Adrian was moving away…
73. I will remember this, Paulina…
74. I am not sure why, but I hope it is not a big deal.
75. I do not trust her for a single second.
76. He kisses me for what feels like the billionth time
77. I am sorry for not remembering you
78. This whole thing is so weird, but I am enjoying myself.
79. I am treating you as if you are my wife
80. Have you had many other patients like me?
81. What is wrong with me?
82. Was I having an affair with Lars before the accident?
83. I only had sex with Pearl to make you jealous…
84. He wanted me to beg him to come back? That was his excuse for betraying me?
85. For the first time, my heart is completely open
86. Is everything all right?
87. And seeing you naked? I am more than okay, buddy.
88. Fucking memory loss
89. A man who stalks Anna and tries to attack her is not a man at all
90. Get your ass off me, you dick!
91. Do you really understand what I am telling you?
92. I moan and shake
93. My heart is beating hard
94. My head is full of Anna.
95. You really need to see a doctor about that. It is not normal!
96. Is that why you screamed?
97. I can tell he feels the same way
98. Did his mother not expect me to come?
99. It is not too late to join
100. With pleasure
101. Did he hurt you?
102. Do not stop kissing me...
103. He is perfect!
104. Am I really pregnant?
105. How am I ever supposed to look him in the eye after this?
106. My stupid, fucking brain.
107. Did Lionel really ask her to marry him?
108. “Deal.”
109. Once I climb onto the bed
110. Why the hell can I suddenly not stop thinking about Lionel?
111. I would never want to date a guy who’s also dating other women
112. That’s probably why she’s still a virgin
113. I’m kidding
114. First place belongs to me
115. My lips tremble slightly
116. No guy had ever touched her before.
117. And lying there in bed
118. Please don’t judge me.
119. .. how do you know I like you?
120. Very scary
121. I want to do it again
122. Am I safe?
123. ..... try to seduce Lionel into having sex with me.
124. Why did you stop?
125. I'm already getting addicted
126. I kiss her cheek
127. Your imaginary boyfriend?
128. I love this man so much that it actually hurts.
129. I would never
130. I'm going to fuck you hard against the wall.
131. Does my size scare you?
132. I bite down on my lower lip
133. You're the stalker girl who stole my brother away from me
134. Lionel presses a kiss to the top of my head
135. I'm disgusting for wanting him
136. But life is never that simple.
137. You got that poor girl pregnant?
138. Is she trying to get me killed?
139. A terrible sister.
140. I swear I'm marrying you instead
141. Your wife is pregnant?
142. You're evil.
143. Thanks for pointing out my flaws
144. ....stop rushing me!
145. It's my guilty pleasure.
146. Shall we go take that shower?
147. All my self-consciousness disappears
148. Why do I want you this much?
149. I need your c*ck
150. There's no way that was your best sex ever
151. .. my heart is beating kind of fast.
152. My heart hurts..
153. And how do you know that?
154. That's a lie
155. What did I do to deserve this?
156. Is that weird?
157. What is he even doing to me?
158. Why are you like this? Go away
159. You're getting more adorable by the second
160. I just want to go cry in bed
161. I'm really looking forward to it.
162. Stop moaning my name
163. I love you too
164. Sexy?
165. You are impossible
166. It is like we are roommates instead of husband and wife.
167. So you are the one who is secretly evil
168. What did I do?
169. I am guilty of being a bad loser
170. You are so beautiful tonight
171. You drive me insane
172. Where is your pride?
173. I want to marry you
174. Those eyes are so annoying
175. ....my eyes stuck on his round ass.
176. What are you? My bodyguard?
177. We can fuck each other after that
178. Do not be silly
179. It is a fact.
180. How could I say no to more of this?
181. I have some demands you have to meet before I agree to...
182. Do not fall for him
183. She looks worried about me.
184. You can stay with me
185. Your arrogance is so not cute.
186. MY LIFE IS OVER
187. Half naked
188. Just kill me now.
189. Pervert?
190. This is just sex.
191. I will be your girlfriend
192. At the same time, Carissa turned her head.
193. If you want proof, try getting close to me
194. What did he want now?
195. Who told you to be stubborn?
196. Leon never made empty threats
197. I will take her now
198. maybe it is time I get a wife
199. No. People will talk if I do that...
200. Your boyfriend is the one you should be thinking about..
201. People will believe what they want, even if it is wrong...
202. Please keep your distance from her starting now
203. Stop trying to sweet-talk me!
204. Get out...
205. Things will only get worse ...
206. Why does it have to be like this
207. I do not want to see you destroy yourself like before.
208. Help me propose to...
209. I want you
210. Look at you... almost becoming my wife.
211. When you use this vibrator, do you ever think of me?
212. He kisses my ass
213. I breathe out. "I am so... Close.."
214. I think I might be falling in love with you
215. I am still not sure if I love her
216. Like he owns me
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